The world is yet to be figured out by anyone, and I am probably the farthest one away from finding any answers. Everything that I could possibly imagine not going right seems to be happening. I constantly wonder when things are going to smooth out and get back on that wonderful path that they were once on. I have spent a good bit of time pondering by myself attempting to figure out why god has presented me with so many difficult scenarios this semester, but I cannot conjure an answer. To this day I have managed to get through all of these circumstances, but it has not been easy. It seems as though I am breaking through one situation and then another one is appearing. It is taking its tole on me and I am trying to stay as positive minded about it as possible. I am getting through everything with prayer ans the help of those around me and I know all will work out well. I have been very tired of late this weekend did not help. I tried to stay as busy as possible all weekend to keep my mind off of everything that has been and is still going on. I do not like my problems to drag those around me down so I attempt to keep a positive attitude around my peers. I am ready for all of the frustrations to be gone and relax for the first time in a while. After this weekend I was satisfied that I manged to keep myself busy and was able to make a few new friends along the way. It was the first time in a few weeks that I was able to get out and get my mind off of everything. I am not trying to scare those of you who read this, I have just had a lot going on in the world of Patrick as of late. I am ready to get exams started and head home for summer to enjoy myself and put all of these issues in the past. I am not a person to hold onto things so once it has all passed over it will just be another one of those things that I can say I made it through.
Now to fill in on what has been going on in my world. I know Debby has been getting on me about not blogging so I found a little time to get one in here. As we all know the Tarheels are National Champions again. That is said with great pride and joy. I have been very busy with school, but I am proud to announce that my grades are quite solid and I calculated my GPA the other day and it has gone up since last semester. I am getting ready for exams in the upcoming weeks and have managed to get all of my work done so that I have some time this week to attempt to build up some energy for the long hours I will be pulling next week getting all of my studies in. It has been the shorter of the two semesters, but it is now dragging out with all of the other things I have going on besides school. It has been a year full of memories and I have met some very significant people who mean the world to me this semester. I often wonder what would have happened if I had not been placed here at UNCG. I know I would not be sitting here typing this blog and I probably would be a very different person than I am now. I have grown a lot and changed a lot at the same time over the course of this year. I am still the same old Patrick that everyone knows I have just been through many new things that have given me a different outlook on life and a different outlook on many things than I had prior to the school year. My whole world changed the minute I stepped foot on this campus back in June for orientation and it has been an adventure since that day. I would not trade one second of this adventure for the world though. Every hard time and every laugh that I have shared with anyone at this school has made me a stronger person and made me grow. I have a different perspective on a lot of things because of the influences I have been around here at school. There is one constant that will never change and that is my faith in God. I go to him on a daily basis for guidance and without him would not have been able to make it through this first year. "Trust in the lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight" (Proverbs 3:5). This is the answer to all of the questions that I have had in that first paragraph. I feel that everything happens for a reason much like my girlfriend Mary-Neil has always told me. I was not able to make it home for Easter and I was very upset, but I now know that i was supposed to go to church with Ashley Hastings that morning and hear this bible verse. It has helped me cope with my struggles even though they still exist. I know that everything will work out in its own time, even if it is not when I want it too. I know this blog has been slightly sporadic at times, but this is what has been going on for about the past month. God Bless!!
Patrick, it was good to see you at church on Sunday. I know that this has been a very interesting year both spiritually and intellectually! It was awesome to read the blog today and hear how you have kept your commitment to GOD through this first year. HE will NEVER forsake you or leave you and I know that you are very aware of that. But we all struggle with all the stuff that we go through that continues to form our character to show us and others what we are really made of. Your commitment to GOD surely comes through to all those who know the "old Patrick" and the new one if they met you today. Don't ever give up on what GOD can and will do with your life. It is worth everything that you have to give just to get what HE wants you to have. Just keep seeking HIM and HIS will for your life.
ReplyDeleteI know that this past week has been a low point for you and I was glad that you were home to spend some time just letting things go. Only GOD knows what will happen with your relationship with Mary-Neil so just don't give up on her yet. Sometimes we need to let time and distance work its ways and then find out where our hearts are really headed. I will keep you in my prayers during this difficult time of relationships and also with exams coming up. Know that I am always here to listen anytime. Text, call anytime @ 252-0671 or facebook or email. Your pleasure. Have a great week and look forward to hearing how the next few weeks go.
Larry